How Are You?

August 7, 2007

Do Something - Macy Gray

Since I'm in yet another dry spell, I figured this is a good time to get reacquainted with my readers (if any) and start good vibes with by asking the common "how are you".

Work has been monotonous and rife with politics. I have to deal with our office becoming a tabloid rumor mill. Funny how much people judge you based on assumptions they have of you. I daresay how much do they know me ba? I'm not telling them to look at themselves before singing the Eric Clapton blues, you know, about accusing others, because I'm assuming they're smart enough to know that cliche and to put that into practice. To think that "professionalism" is such a vogue word, its principle is often elusive to those who tries to project it. And before you scream "hypocrite" I haven't criticized my boss (who doesn't belong to the rumormongers). I can't say say the same for those band of rumormongers; don't they have anything better to do? I'm sorry about letting off some steam and I'm not going to do this often, but I just needed to vent.

I find my respite, during my free time, either by blogging or by being buried in a book and being tuned out of the surroundings. This habit led me to finish many books: 7 in total since Harry Potter 7 got released, and I've yet to read Harry Potter 7.

Then there's web design, a course I take on weekends. I thought last week was the deadline for my web design projects. On Friday night I meticulously applied all finishing touches, readied the project for submission, only to learn that the instructor intended to give us a week extension. And I slept 2AM because of FINISHING ON TIME! ARGH! As a result of cramming, I felt groggy the whole weekend. On the brighter side, I'm happy to announce that I've become quite better at Photoshop than when I started. Our next subject is Macromedia Flash and I can't wait to learn that. I may even study in advance.

Among all the work, study, and community service, I hardly have time to play videogames. But when I have found the time, I play a few hours of Dragon Quest VIII (which I intend to finish) and Sam and Max (the first 3 episodes I've beaten, and I'm currently at the 4th episode). On the other hand, I'm less busy this week than the previous, so I'm trying as much as I can to make this week fun-filled. As for the  7 books I've just finished, I might write about them soon. My next book? Probably Fight Club by Chuck Palahniuk.

So, how are you guys doing?

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O Whereforth Art Thy Wisdom?

Happiness Is - Vince Guaraldi Trio

Jealousy is such a strong word, but I admire those bloggers who get lots of comments posted on their entries, and I wish to earn such privilege too on my dotph blog. It's very barren here and I could use more excitement.

Desperate for attention, I decided to add my list of contacts to the friends page of my dotph blog (this can be done on the Dashboard Tab way above) so as to be able to notify-slash-annoy my friends whenever I post new entries. Alas, because of some weird technical difficulties, I couldn't export my yahoo messengers' contact to my friend's list, so I had to type each emails individually.

Doing that was not only toilsome, but also depressing. I don't often have many reasons to look at my yahoo messenger's contacts, and I wish I hadn't looked today. Frankly the amount of contacts I have on my list is just an illusion of grandeur: I'm not close to a lot of my online friends. Only a few on my list of "friends" are people who I am willing to be stuck with in the same elevator.

Is this their fault? No. That's what makes it more painful. My immediate realization is in knowing that I don't go out enough. It's not that I don't like having fun (I do), but I am so busy it's not even funny. I keep recalling that, way back in high school, I was a more outgoing person and among the most adaptable to different cliques (cliques to me are meaningless). What happened to that time? I miss those carefree moments in my life where I can sit back, relax, kick my feet up, and have long chats with friends.

So anyway, this is my most recent blog update. Did I end up annoying you with this kind of whiny contents? My apologies. I still am trying, but it's not easy to nurture positive thoughts when I live a typical twentysomething's life that I despise. I wish I could ask someone out. The world is not a playground, but having fun every now and then isn't so bad.

In the meantime, you can brighten up my day by posting comments. 

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