A Need to be Hungry

This title is not directed to starved countries - and that includes the Philippines, as much as the government want to delude you into believing otherwise. By all means, feed the hungry until the hunger goes away.

A harmonious world is a world where everyone can eat three meals a day. Much has been said about foods being the winners of hearts. Since last week, though, they couldn’t seem to win my heart.

I’m becoming anorexic.

Thanks to a less-than-competent hag, I’ve been having this cold for a week. For me, colds have always been mere bagatelle, and aside from giving me an uncontrolled overflow of mucous, I have never paid it much mind.

This time, though, my cold is different. I can tell. I need to feel a hunger before I eat. Since last week, I’ve never felt any hunger. I would go on many hours not eating, and would eat only because I felt that it was obligatory. And this is pretty bad. There are days when I see my favorite viands laid in front of me, yet I couldn’t consume them with my normal fervor, and eat only half as much as on normal days.

Yes, I can see that it’s making me lose weight, and I think I’ve become lighter than I was weeks before. But this is not how I want to lose weight. I want to lose weight by working out, by exercising until I have sweated profusely. It’s definitely healthier than not eating. I don’t want to go the way of Karen Carpenter.

What do I do?